I do believe in fairies

The last two days have been amazing. I swear i can still feel myself floating.

I think i'm gonna be an addict soon. It'd be pretty ugly. Then nat would have to kick my ass. Haha.

I dunno why i hold back some of the things i wanna say. I'm usually not the shy type. Usually i shoot my mouth wherever i go. But this one's different. Maybe cos i dun really know where i stand.

When he looks me in the eyes and smile at me, i swear i feel like i could die and it'd be alrite. It's as if he knows what i'm thinking and he's thinking of the same thing too.

First date- Blink 182

In the car I just can't wait
To pick you up on our very first date
Is it cool if I hold your hand?
Is it wrong if I think it's lame to dance?
Do you like my stupid hair?
Would you guess that I didn't know what to wear?
I just scared of what you think
You make me nervous so i really can't eat

Let's go
Don't wait
This night's almost over
Honest
Let's make
This night last forever
forever and ever
let's make this last forever

When you smile I melt inside
I'm not worthy for a minute of your time
I really wish it was only me and you
I'm jealous of everybody in the room
Please don't look at me with those eyes
Please don't hint that you're capable of lies
I dread the thought of our very first kiss
A target that I'm probably gonna miss

I came to school today to have a consultation with a bio teacher. It would have been my second one in two years. But he said that it wasnt today. It's tmr. I dont think i can wake up early tmr. Oh well.

Yesterday, nat, ama and i went to see some bands perfom at wheelock. There is this band that played oasis songs and i melted all over the sidewalk. I think i'm getting soft. But nat says i'm just being mellow. Oh well.

Then we went to far east to watch some more bands play. Two bands played my chemical romance's I'm not okay. If those guys heard their song being played like that, they'd cry all over the sidewalk.

Then we decided to walk around in far east. And i saw the the cutest spongebob square pants boxers. They were soooo cute. And they have spider-man boxers. But no batman. Haha. If nat sees a guy wearing that songebob square pants boxers, she'll rip them off. Haha.

So then we went home. And i watched the oh-so-hot Jet Li. And fell aslp half-way. Haha.

I feel that i'm less angry nowadays. Pretty good improvement considering nothing else has changed. But sometimes i'm still left confused. And my head hurts trying to figure things out. Oh well.

Naj is whining away. She needs to feed the monster in her. Haha.

Prelims

Just finished last lect. Tmr is gp prelim. Next week is study leave, week after that is school hols. When school reopens, it's prelims. So i have two weeks of agony. Have to send a search and rescue team inside my cupboard to find all my friggin notes. So i probably wont post anything up till next month. Oh well. I'd probably screw up my prelims anyway.

See ya folks.

I'm back

I've experimented with the colour of the tag board. Tell me what u guys think abt it. Not that it matters but at least it'd be a topic for discussion.

So i'm done with school for the day. Not forever, unfortunately. Natasha is beside me updating her blog. Go check it out. It's got some funny shit there.

We were doing revision on the heart just now. And i couldn't help but laugh whenever she uses, as Priya puts it, caveman sign language. Damn it woman, we're not kids.

Today she looks like an egg plant. I'm quite disappointed today. Cos nobody noticed that i was wearing mis-matched socks. One's red and black striped, the other white and black striped. What happened to attire checks? Oh well. Better luck tmr.

Mindless Ramblings

Ok,i have only 5 mins before the next horrific class starts.

Yesterday morning i saw an accident almost happen before my eyes. The weird thing is i was stoning as i was crossing the road. I happen to be staring at this yellow cab. A split second later, another yellow cab almost hit that cab. The sound of tyres screeching broke me from my stoned gaze. I wasnt freaked out. Just disappointed nothing exciting happened. Heh. I'm not sadistic by the way. I would have loved to skip school yesterday. I could have been like the prime eye-witness or something. Then i could have missed school.

School yesterday was a horror. I had 3 bloody tests on the same day. Plus i ended at 5.30. After which,i rushed back to tutor my cousins from hell. Haha. I got home at 10 and died in bed. I was, unfortunately brought back to the living by my trusty alarm clock. Damn it. I would have loved to play dead all day.

Ok, 5 mins over. Have to go now and imagine killing my teacher in the most horrible manner. What fun!

U2-sweetest thing

My love she throws me like a rubber ball
Oh oh oh, the sweetest thing
She won't catch me or break my fall
Oh oh oh, the sweetest thing

Baby's got blue skies up ahead
But in this I'm a rain cloud
You know she likes a dry kind of love
Oh oh oh, the sweetest thing

I'm losing you
Hey hey hey, I'm losing you yeah
Ain't love the sweetest thing

I wanted to run but she made me crawl
Oh oh oh, the sweetest thing
Eternal fire, she turned me to straw
Oh oh, the sweetest thing

You know I got black eyes
But they burn so brightly for her
Mine is a blind kind of love
Oh oh oh, the sweetest thing

Blue-eyed boy and this brown-eyed girl
Oh oh oh, the sweetest thing
You can sew it up but you still see the tear
Oh oh oh, the sweetest thing

Baby's got blue skies up ahead
And in this I'm a rain cloud
You know we got a stormy kind of love
Oh oh oh, the sweetest thing

In gp class. Not listening again. I hate this life. So much hate, anger and pain. I wish i could leave forever.

Everclear- Wonderful

I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them
I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again

Hold my mom and I hold my dad
Can't figure out why they get so mad
Hear them scream, I hear them fight
They say bad words and make me want to cry
Close my eyes when I go to bed and I
Dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful some day

Promises mean everything when you're little and the world's so big
I just don't understand how you can smile with all those tears in your eye
And tell me everything is wonderful now

Na na nana........
Please don't tell me everthing is wonderful now

Go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all ok
I laugh a lot so my friends wont know
But when the bell rings I just don't want to go
Go in my room and I close my eyes
I make believe I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful some day

I don't want to hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
I don't to hear you say that I will understand some day
I don't want to hear you say both have grown in a different way
I don't want to meet your friend
I don't want to start over again
I just want my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Somedays I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now.

Everything is wonderful now

I need to buy a punching bag. Anyone up to the challenge of being one for me?

Shut up before i shoot u down

Today is not monday. It's migraine-day. Had a lousy maths test. And more chem tests to come. Oh well.

Some people piss the hell out of me. A teacher of mine calls us whore all the time. Except that the rest of my classmates don't notice it. She knows i don't like her teaching methods. She once said,"The baby in the stomach,uh..."
I turned to my friend and asked her,"Isn't it call a feotus? And if it's in the stomach, won't it get digested?"

I've been pissed all over the place. Not just in school.

Stop pissing me off world. Before i snap and shoot everyone down. I mean it.

RX Queen

I won’t stop following you
Now help me pray for
The death of everything new
Then we’ll fly farther
Cause you’re my girl
And that’s all right
If you sting me
I won’t mind
We’ll stop to rest on the
Moon and we’ll make a fire
I’ll steal a carcass for youT
hen feed off the virus
Now look at em sting
I see a red light in June
And I hear crying
You turn newborn baby blue
Now we’re all the virus

I'm not ok!

This song has been etched in my head since this morning.The funny thing is it's not the last song i heard.The last song was blue orchid by white stripes.And as the day progressed,it got louder and louder in my head and i just had to let it out.so i started singing,or rather whining.Then i started to dance in class.But it looked like spastic movements and my teacher looked at me in horror.He'd tot i had a fit or something! And it is true,i'm not o-fucking-kay.I've never been.I kept cussing at my teacher under my breathe.I so wanted to lung at her and strangle her.She's one of the people on my hitlist.Haha.

My Chemical Romance

Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say
I never want to let you down or have you go
It's better off this way
For all the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
Remember when you broke your foot
From jumping out the second floor

I'm not okay
You wear me out

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems(I'm not okay)
I told you time and time again
You sing the words but still don't know what they mean
To be a joke and look
Another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time
Take a good hard look

I'm okay
I'm okay, now(I'm okay, now)
But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay(Trust me)
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay

Yellowcard-Only One

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up
And I give up
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up
I feel like giving up
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

PS: i love this song.so full of emotions.it reminds me of someone.oh well.

Nothing to do

I've got nothing to say except that life's been a lil' crazy lately. I really suck at this blogging thing, so i'm just gonna post lyrics here or words from my demented head.