It's been confusing. Tiring. Crazy. I keep thinking, is this all worth it in the end. I'm not a quitter but i'm thinking of quitting. I'm a fighter but i don't feel like fighting. I'm becoming what i never wanted to be. I'm holding on when i should let go. I'm letting go what i should hold on to. To say the least, life's been fucked up. And it's all my doing. It's all my fault. I have no one to blame.

Stupid.

Endlessly-Muse

there's a part of me you'll never know
the only thing i'll never show

hopelessly,
i'll love you endlessly
hopelessly,
i'll give you everything
but i won't give you up
i won't let you down
i won't leave you falling
if the moment ever comes

it's plain to see, it's trying to sleep
it's plain to see, it's trying to speak
cherished dreams forever asleep

Would you die for me?


Thought so.

The ghost of you-My chemical romance

I never said i'd lie and wait forever
If I did we'd be together
I cant always just forget her
But she could try

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I?
Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever ever...

Ever...
Get the feeling that you'rel never
All alone and I remember now
At the top of my lungs in my arms she dies
She dies

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I?
Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I?
Should I?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me

If I fall down.

I feel like they brought me back to the living. But the thing is, i don't want to be brought back. I want to stay dead. Lifeless.

When he looks in my eyes, everything melts away.

I realise now what i've been missing. Too bad i don't want the realisation in the first place.