It feels like i'm on a bike and it's going fast and out of control. The options i have are to jump or continue the ride.

If i jump, i'd seriously hurt myself. The pain would be immediate but the terror would be over.

But if i continue on, i'd be scared shit. But hopefully i won't get too hurt.

It's the same thing. I know there's something wrong with me but some people fail to see that until it's too late.