What's the pooint?

Everyone hates you. Do us all a favour and kill yourself. Go on. You'll be better off that way. We dont have a use for u anymore.

Go on.

Just take the knife and slit ur wrists. It isnt that hard.

Or you can try to jump off a building. That'll be fun wouldn't it?

Or how abt hanging ur neck on the hangman's noose?

There're so many ways to free this world form u. I'll even help u if u want. Like say, put a bullet thru ur head. I dont mind getting a death sentence for killing you.

I've always been waiting for an accident to happen to me. Like say, a car runs me over or a bus smashing my brains all over the road.

Yes, i do have a deathwish. But it's not a bad thing.

Everytime i read abt someone dying, i always wish that it was me instead. Than that person didnt have to die and the people who loved him didnt have to cry. Cos if i traded places with that person and die, no one would be sad and the world would be a brighter place.

Stop pointing ur finger at me or i'll break them and feed them to balem.

And thakns to u i was given a last chance. I was never meant to be in that position but u pushed everyone to the edge. The reason why he did that was so that u would shut the fuck up. But u alrdy know that, dont you?

U've been pushing me far over the edge. I've just been taking it all in cos i tot one day u'd get sick of it and stop. But u never did. U dont realise that i can destroy u if i choose to be merciless. But i dont cos ur flesh and blood and thats the only reason why ur safe from my wrath. But don't think i'll never do it.

There're weirder than weird things creeping around in my head.
Things that aren't suppose to be there in the first place.

I didnt think abt them, they just leapt and hid themselves in my head.

If i was thinking abt them, then i should be able to not think abt them and they'd go away right?

Wait, i'm not even making any sense.

Whatever. It's not like anyone's reading this anyway.

If i can't have you, no one else can.

Muahahaha!

I'd kill you if i have to.

Muahaha!

Nah, i'm just messing with ya.

Haha.

Actually i was just kidding abt that too =>

When i watch him sleep, time stood still.
It was the most beautiful moment.
I didnt want to move an inch cos i didnt want him to wake up.
He's so beautiful.
Does he know that?
And he has no idea how i truly feel inside for him.
I wished he'd understand how i honestly feel abt him.
I wished he only knew.
This feeling that i have for him, it's something i rarely feel.
Hell, i didnt even think i would feel it in my lifetime.
I've always tot it didnt exist.
This is unbelievable.
This is love.

If i ever dont wake up, it doesnt neccesarily mean i'm dead. I'm probably just trapped in my dreams. Cos thats how they are. They trap me and refuse to let me wake up until the sun starts shining and by then, i'd be late for work.

So it's not my fault for my inability to get up before the sun does. Don't blame me.

And maybe i'd die in my dreams. Just like how my dreams have died on me. It doesnt matter what happens to me anymore. I've got nothing more to lose.

On and On. Reckless abandon.

I'd said thank you to them just to make them feel bad for failing to see that i'm as abled as all the other guys. Fuck you very much.

Maybe there's a consipracy against me amongst you mofos. I dont know. I'd like to think there's one.

Or maybe you just want me to stick around longer so you can keep on looking at me in that perverse kind of way.

Whatever.

Give me one more medicated peacful moment.

3 libras- A perfect circle

Threw you the obvious and you flew
With it on your back
A name in your recollection
Down among a million same.

Difficult not to feel a little bit disappointed
And passed over
When I've looked right through
To see you naked and oblivious
And you don't...see...me.

But i threw you the obvious
Just to see if there's more behind the
Eyes of a fallen angel,
Eyes of a tragedy.

Here i am expecting just a little bit
Too much from the wounded.
But i see, see through it all, see through
And see you.

Cause I threw you the obvious
To see what occurs behind the
Eyes of a fallen angel,
Eyes of a tragedy.

Oh well.
Oh well, apparently nothing.
Apparently nothing at all

You don't, you don't, you don't see me.
You don't see me at all

I don't really know the reason why.

Maybe u don't see me at all anymore?

I can't believe i can still rmbr all my passwords and username! Well, back to depressing stuff.

I was in shock yesterday when i got the phone call. I was at work. I didnt know what happened to me. I don't rmbr crying but my face was wet. In my head i tot you were dead. That would explain why u didnt return my msg. I was just in shock. I wanted to see u for myself, that u were really ok. I'm just glad ur still alive and kicking. I don't know what i'll do if u ever...
I'd rather not think abt it.

I'd never be able to tell you what i hide inside all these years.

I wish there's a way out of this difficult situation. Something i could do. I'd do anything for you.

Take care now. Whenever u need me, i'm always around.