It wasnt an act of rash stupidity.
it was well thought out.
i've been waiting for that moment for a long time.
i was just surprised at my choice.
it just came naturally.

i know now that u now.
but dont alienate me just cos u think wat i did was wrong.
dont treat me like i'm abt to break either.
everything abt me is still the same.
except that i'll try to keep my promise to u.

thank u for not giving up on me.
i know now that i was being stupid.
i just wish u'd understand a bit more.
but thank u for sticking up with me and saving my ass.
u could have just left me all alone to die.
but u didnt and i'm left to wonder why.

i'm sorry i messed up ur head.
it wasnt just abt u.
u shouldnt have felt the way u did.
i never intended to hurt u too.
just myself.

i'm just glad i have u as my voice of reason.