why oh why?

why does saying the right thing sounds wrong?

just one word of caution to guys out there:
i am not to be fucked round with.
period.

one day i hope i'll be in a bad accident and get mangled up or something just to show that u guys are right. u keep talking abt accidents as if u want me to be involved in one. one day, i'll show u ur right. i'm sick of having to listen to u nag at me everyday. as if i dunno the fucking dangers. i know the risks when i took my license so stop telling me that. it's redundant and repetitive.

not to mention now i'm spending my lunch time in the archive room, doing mindless filing. yea, that's my dream job alright. oh wait, ur dream job for me right?

and i cant go anywhere even though i have my own bike. that defeats the purpose of getting one doesnt it?

yes that's right. my life is just perfect. the story of my life.

everything i say now is a deathblow. i cant shoot my mouth anymore or i will be shot down.

where's the fun in that anymore?

i just said i missed you and then u said goodbye. hmm.. that makes sense because..

oh wait, no it doesnt make sense. but to u it does right?

because thats ur ans for everything isnt it?

to run away and hope ur past doesnt catch up to u.

look, i'm no longer that stupid lil girl. i can take care of myself. because of u i was forced into this situation and i grew from it. u wouldnt believe how much i've been through after u. u'd regret it even.

since u like to run away so much, i'll do u a favour and cut myself out of ur life.

it's better off this way for u right?

that works for u right?

dont look for me anymore. i'm just a memory to u. i've always been, havent i?

muse.

think abt it.

There's no somewhere for me. No place far enough away. Because no matter where i go, I'll always be there.

i was at the traffic light waiting for the lights to cahnge when i heard a scooter behind me.

so i looked behind to see the vespa. nothing wrong with it right?

the guy stopped beside me and turned to talk to me.

he asked for my name, where i was going. then he asked the weirdest qns, he asked for my number. the lights were goinna change so i told him and he tried to rmbr it.

then as we were moving off, he asked if he could follow me. i just smiled. i would've told him, then if he could keep up in his vespa, then hell yea, he could follow me.

haha, but then when we got to the expressway, he lost me.

oops, sorry dude, i just need the speed.

i guess he forgot my number cos i haven't heard from him.

haha.oh well.

Pennywise- Something to change

Another boring day just fades away a cycle that's never gonna change
Another casualty of humanity awash in my own stupidty
It's like I don't want to try
There's no reason why a cyborg that's waiting around to die
Got nothing left to prove I got no excuse a wasteoid with nothing left to lose

I'm waiting for my own salvation
I got to get out - there's no time to waste

Cause I need something to change
Something to break - Some way to get away
Some way to get away from you

A never-ending game - always the same - forever spent waiting for the day
I know there's gotta be some place for me where I can escape this misery
The more and more I try it just seems that I get further from what I want in life
There's nothing I can do I got no excuse a reject who hasn't got a clue

I'm waiting for my own salvation I got to get out - there's not time to waste

Why laa?

i'm just so fucking jealous. i don't even know why.

i guess i'm just afraid that i'd get hurt again.

so why laa did i ever fall for it again?

fuck it man. if anything goes wrong i'll blame you, amalina.

muahaha.

i just want him all to myself. no sharing pls.

The raeson why i havent been in here is cos they've asked me to get an account with google
but i'm just too damn lazy to.