i wish i was the ocean. neither living nor dead. calm and peaceful on the surface. but raging underneath.

i'll dig my toes into the sand. i'll look at the ocean. it'll look like a thousand diamonds strewn across a blue blanket. i'll lean against the wind and pretend that i am weightless. and in that moment i'll be happy damnit.

i'd wish i wasnt there alone. i'd wish u were here.

i'll count the ufos. and signal them with my lighter. and in that moment i'll stay happy.

and when i leave, i'll forget abt u and all the things that u've done. i'll get my life straighten out.it'll work out. it'll work out.

if i say that often enough, it might just come true.