he suddenly popped into my head. not really sudden cos i was listening to my mp3. like really listening. hearing the songs that songs that he likes too.

and then he came to mind.

after what mum told me abt getting married and all, it got a little emotional.

the guy i almost had..

that is what kills me. the only human who would ever sincerely listen to me. and the only human i would ever listen to.

why did u have to be so perfect?

why oh why?

i scared myself when i realised what i had tried to do when i lost him. i still couldnt believe i was going to do that for another human being. but if the occasion calls for it, i'd do it again. but just for him.

i wonder if he rmbrs me. our conversations. our jokes. my drean abt the ocean turning into a thousand diamonds strewn across a blue blanket.

i scared myself even more when i realised i want to wait for him. cos i'm willing to.

cos he's definitely worth it.