the hopelessness sank in immediately, taking root into the core of my being, manifesting itself as i struggle to gain control. it enveloped me as i struggle to breathe thru my lungs, cutting out my air supply and choking me.

then i sank into the deepest black and i was blinded by the black sea of hopelessness.i was too tired to struggle any further and i let it seep into my skin, right down to my bones. i breathe out the last of the air in my lungs and collapse into tears.

there's nowhere far away for me. cause wherever i go, i'll always be there, were my last thought before i black out.

yeap, that was how hopelessness felt. my stay has been long overdue.