There's something within me. It manifests itself. It feeds on my anger and pain. It gives me migraines.

You Are Scary

You even scare scary people sometimes!

How Scary Are You?

I seem to be singing,

I never meant to cause you trouble. I never meant to do you wrong. Well if i ever cause you trouble. Oh no, I never meant to do you harm.

alot

lately.

It kills me when i blame myself. Might as well i slit my wrists.

And it's all my fault. Now he has nowhere to go. He refuses to go to anyone's house. These eyes refuse to cry again.


I had a lovely dream the other day. I wish i could go back to it again. I dreamt i slit both my wrists really deep with a kitchen knife. Then i got onto a dolphin and it swam off into the deep blue with me on top. The whole time i let my hands dangle in the water. There was a trail of deep red behind us. And off to the left were sharp rocks. Somehow i felt at ease. Light headed. Happy. In normal circumstances i'd freak out at the sight of so much blood. I didn't get to finish that dream. What a shame.

I'm back to who i used to be. I miss him terribly. The one who can get me back on track.